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Everybody here is either on diet or exercising to get into better shape! Gals, guys, gays!

I cant believe it man, it’s like.. sooo many of them.

Ppl from the lab, ppl from the admin building.. tsk tsk.. I see ppl not eating rice AT ALL.

Anyway work is still sian, have nothing much to do except to read old materials coz everyone is very bz, no time to teach me yet.

The song "home" by Michael Buble kept playing in my head, sometimes I just feel like crying because of the loneliness. I sms hl and sr at times but I have to limit myself; cannot disturb them non stop.

Things will get better next week, looking forward to it but I heard that it might get really bz which is also not good. Well, I cant have everything to go my way.

Met Alwin and Zhiying today. Alwin was bz chatting with some gal –> hint hint to YH. He didnt even know it was me when I was right in front of him and he just walked into the lift with the gal and some other ppl.

I must admit that my entire outfit and appearance is soo totally different from my usual, so it’s quite hard for ppl to notice that it’s me at first.

Zhiying did recognise me, but i think that was only because I grabbed her by the arm and shriek with joy; alas, human contact. 

I feel tat i’m such a lousy person at times.

I can be so honest at times tat i feel stupid e.g. admitting tat i’m the plastic bag bearer to that cleaner auntie.

I am dumbfounded when i’m shocked; just today sarina n i went to vivo and we met a really unreasonable, sickening wheelchair bounded old man. We were in the lift when the old man was "wheeled" in by a vietnamese woman (viet bride?). Sarina was standing right in front so he lean forward to push her away. His really idiotic bride then continued pushing him in further.

Sarina ended up being squeezed to a corner. She then ask the bride to move back alittle, and the old man replied on behalf of the dumb bride in a really rude manner. He said, "so what u want me to do?!"

There was actually plenty of space at the back (behind the viet bride). I could have told the "know-it-all" old man that "hey! there’s plenty of room at the back, there’s no need to sqeeze".

However, at that moment i was really shocked by his bluntness and i just couldn’t back my friend up. I feel kind of lousy coz this isn’t the first time.

It’s not that i’m scared or anything coz i’m obviously not a timid person, but sometimes i just get dumbfounded over such things. I’m such a useless bum, such a lousy friend.

Sucks.

Wa lao, the new guy introduced in “work.. at Exxon 2” is a chemist; chemist in the lab kind of like hold the highest post. Even though the title doesn’t sound as prestigious, I think it’s pretty big there.

About my key, I think everybody knows already lor.

1^st of all, chemists usually leave around 7 or 8 pm, so definitely the female chemists who changed after I left surely would have seen my key on the slightly opened locker.

2^ndly, I think the lab operates 24hrs coz there are shifts, ppl from the night shift also definitely saw already.

Finally, we have a bloody broadcaster, i.e. the cleaner aka auntie lor. She was there earlier than me even though I was the first person of the “normal office hour shift” to reach. I rushed into the bathroom and saw that the locker was halfway open, tat means open quite widely already. I bet tat auntie open and looked inside lor. Few seconds later she came in and was telling me I left it open. Then I was like.. yar…

I think she spent yesterday and today telling everyone else, but thank goodness, no one embarrassed me.. yet.. by confronting me.

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Die!! I’m so dead, I left my locker key at the locker. And the locker isn’t even locked!! Die liao. Die!!!

I hope the cleaner falls sick or smth, and cannot make it to work tmr. I hope nobody reaches there b4 me. Nobody!!

The cleaner holds a grudge against me, and she noes which locker belongs to me. I hope she doesn’t sabo me!!!

I offended her today coz I put my plastic bag next to her “baju”. Coz it was raining, then we all put our umbrellas in the shower room which was also where she put her clothes. In addition to my umbrella, I put my plastic bag next to her clothes. Later in the day I saw her cursing “at” the plastic bag and when she saw me, she took the bag and flung it to the ground.

Sobs!!! Why am I bullied by a fucking cleaner? After tat I told her “then buang”, and I took the bag from her and threw it in the dustbin right in front of her.

Few hours later, I saw her sleeping in the toilet. I acted disgustingly kind and polite to her, asking her if she has “makan” already and stuff. Argh, I hate myself.

Back to the locker key, how!!!! I’m dead!!!

Sobs!!!!!!! I’m dead.. God.. help me…

[o ya, I met a new staff from the refinery lab at the training area today. He, like me on the first day, has no1 to talk to, eat with (I have lunch buddies now; they even announce my name through the PA system to get me to come out to eat, lol). I guess I was not such an odd ball or what.

Also, I realized that the males they employ are kind of different. Like there are some sissies around, and this new guy, tgth with the guy from my department, are both weird in the same way.]

I hate it at work!! I hope this is only temporary.

I’ve just started my internship at Exxon (2 days so far) and I’m already so sian about it. I spend the first 1 and a half days reading some manual from their webby and the other half reading lab manuals.

The reading is fine until this gal (shall give her the initials “ML”) told me I should memorise details such as the temperature and time at which the experiment should be conducted. So many ok!!

Noe what I had to wear? Lab coat, lab pants and boots! I also cannot wear contact lens and for next year, we gotta start tucking in our shirts/coats.

(This U.G.L.Y pic of me reflects that I’m crying inside. I’m so lonely there!!)

Actually I’m still alright with the attire coz it makes me feel cool somehow even though it looks like what civil defense ppl wear to save ppl from fires (o ya, my whole attire is fire resistant too). BUT I have to tie my hair and pin back my fringe.

Can u imagine? Me à ma jiam botak. Anyway I complied, I did what I was suppose to do, tie and pin (so very toot). And noe what? That ML told me to pin more of my “loose fringe” which are those short baby fringes. How to pin?!

Hai~ shall talk about the ppl.

My department only has 3 ppl (excluding me); my supervisor, ML, and a guy.

ML, as mentioned earlier.. well I think she has smth against me. The guy.. I think he is kind of shy and weird, anyway I have a feeling that he likes to be alone or smth. As for my supervisor.. I think I pissed her off or what.

On the first day she took me to the cafeteria at 11am to pack food but at that time I didn’t bring my wallet so I told her I didn’t want to buy any yet, so she ask me to go back first. It was like her kind gesture was turned down by me, I’m damn stupid.

I ended up having lunch with the weird guy; that was how I got the feeling that he is weird and also likes to be alone. ML was no where to be found in case u were wondering.

On the second day, I took the company transport to work. It was really terrible at first coz I didn’t know what bus it was as all the company buses look the same, and I didn’t know any1. The worst part is not knowing where the exact pick up point was. I spend like 10mins running to and fro from where I think the pick up points might be.

At last I saw a bus with a tiny sign at the side saying “EMET Pioneer” so I just hoped on. Luckily someone on the bus who recognizes me smiled at me and I knew I was on the right bus. Otherwise, I might have gone to the bus uncle to ask if it was going to Exxon, and make myself a laughing stock. Thank Goodness!!

Lunch on that day was kind of sian too. I went to join some of the poly students from another department sharing the same lab as us to get food. I didn’t inform my supervisor or anything, and guess what? I met her at the cafeteria.

It was kind of like I didn’t ask for permission and went off but she did tell me lunch time was anytime. But anyway I felt bad coz I should at least have the courtesy to inform her. I’m so stupid!

When she saw me, she was like “I tot u didn’t want to pack food? Why, had a bad experience yesterday?” Me, being a little deaf ask her what her 2^nd sentence was, 3 freaking times.

The poly students started their attachment way earlier then me, so they already knew each other pretty well. Also, I can tell they were on good terms with the ppl working there, even my supervisor. I felt so lousy. So lousy.

Anyway I didn’t talk to any1 coz have no1 to talk to. They probably think I’m weird, shy and likes to be alone, the same as how I tot of that guy. sobs!

God.. help me..