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Everybody here is either on diet or exercising to get into better shape! Gals, guys, gays!

I cant believe it man, it’s like.. sooo many of them.

Ppl from the lab, ppl from the admin building.. tsk tsk.. I see ppl not eating rice AT ALL.

Anyway work is still sian, have nothing much to do except to read old materials coz everyone is very bz, no time to teach me yet.

The song "home" by Michael Buble kept playing in my head, sometimes I just feel like crying because of the loneliness. I sms hl and sr at times but I have to limit myself; cannot disturb them non stop.

Things will get better next week, looking forward to it but I heard that it might get really bz which is also not good. Well, I cant have everything to go my way.

Met Alwin and Zhiying today. Alwin was bz chatting with some gal –> hint hint to YH. He didnt even know it was me when I was right in front of him and he just walked into the lift with the gal and some other ppl.

I must admit that my entire outfit and appearance is soo totally different from my usual, so it’s quite hard for ppl to notice that it’s me at first.

Zhiying did recognise me, but i think that was only because I grabbed her by the arm and shriek with joy; alas, human contact. 

I feel tat i’m such a lousy person at times.

I can be so honest at times tat i feel stupid e.g. admitting tat i’m the plastic bag bearer to that cleaner auntie.

I am dumbfounded when i’m shocked; just today sarina n i went to vivo and we met a really unreasonable, sickening wheelchair bounded old man. We were in the lift when the old man was "wheeled" in by a vietnamese woman (viet bride?). Sarina was standing right in front so he lean forward to push her away. His really idiotic bride then continued pushing him in further.

Sarina ended up being squeezed to a corner. She then ask the bride to move back alittle, and the old man replied on behalf of the dumb bride in a really rude manner. He said, "so what u want me to do?!"

There was actually plenty of space at the back (behind the viet bride). I could have told the "know-it-all" old man that "hey! there’s plenty of room at the back, there’s no need to sqeeze".

However, at that moment i was really shocked by his bluntness and i just couldn’t back my friend up. I feel kind of lousy coz this isn’t the first time.

It’s not that i’m scared or anything coz i’m obviously not a timid person, but sometimes i just get dumbfounded over such things. I’m such a useless bum, such a lousy friend.

Sucks.

Wa lao, the new guy introduced in “work.. at Exxon 2” is a chemist; chemist in the lab kind of like hold the highest post. Even though the title doesn’t sound as prestigious, I think it’s pretty big there.

About my key, I think everybody knows already lor.

1^st of all, chemists usually leave around 7 or 8 pm, so definitely the female chemists who changed after I left surely would have seen my key on the slightly opened locker.

2^ndly, I think the lab operates 24hrs coz there are shifts, ppl from the night shift also definitely saw already.

Finally, we have a bloody broadcaster, i.e. the cleaner aka auntie lor. She was there earlier than me even though I was the first person of the “normal office hour shift” to reach. I rushed into the bathroom and saw that the locker was halfway open, tat means open quite widely already. I bet tat auntie open and looked inside lor. Few seconds later she came in and was telling me I left it open. Then I was like.. yar…

I think she spent yesterday and today telling everyone else, but thank goodness, no one embarrassed me.. yet.. by confronting me.

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Die!! I’m so dead, I left my locker key at the locker. And the locker isn’t even locked!! Die liao. Die!!!

I hope the cleaner falls sick or smth, and cannot make it to work tmr. I hope nobody reaches there b4 me. Nobody!!

The cleaner holds a grudge against me, and she noes which locker belongs to me. I hope she doesn’t sabo me!!!

I offended her today coz I put my plastic bag next to her “baju”. Coz it was raining, then we all put our umbrellas in the shower room which was also where she put her clothes. In addition to my umbrella, I put my plastic bag next to her clothes. Later in the day I saw her cursing “at” the plastic bag and when she saw me, she took the bag and flung it to the ground.

Sobs!!! Why am I bullied by a fucking cleaner? After tat I told her “then buang”, and I took the bag from her and threw it in the dustbin right in front of her.

Few hours later, I saw her sleeping in the toilet. I acted disgustingly kind and polite to her, asking her if she has “makan” already and stuff. Argh, I hate myself.

Back to the locker key, how!!!! I’m dead!!!

Sobs!!!!!!! I’m dead.. God.. help me…

[o ya, I met a new staff from the refinery lab at the training area today. He, like me on the first day, has no1 to talk to, eat with (I have lunch buddies now; they even announce my name through the PA system to get me to come out to eat, lol). I guess I was not such an odd ball or what.

Also, I realized that the males they employ are kind of different. Like there are some sissies around, and this new guy, tgth with the guy from my department, are both weird in the same way.]

I hate it at work!! I hope this is only temporary.

I’ve just started my internship at Exxon (2 days so far) and I’m already so sian about it. I spend the first 1 and a half days reading some manual from their webby and the other half reading lab manuals.

The reading is fine until this gal (shall give her the initials “ML”) told me I should memorise details such as the temperature and time at which the experiment should be conducted. So many ok!!

Noe what I had to wear? Lab coat, lab pants and boots! I also cannot wear contact lens and for next year, we gotta start tucking in our shirts/coats.

(This U.G.L.Y pic of me reflects that I’m crying inside. I’m so lonely there!!)

Actually I’m still alright with the attire coz it makes me feel cool somehow even though it looks like what civil defense ppl wear to save ppl from fires (o ya, my whole attire is fire resistant too). BUT I have to tie my hair and pin back my fringe.

Can u imagine? Me à ma jiam botak. Anyway I complied, I did what I was suppose to do, tie and pin (so very toot). And noe what? That ML told me to pin more of my “loose fringe” which are those short baby fringes. How to pin?!

Hai~ shall talk about the ppl.

My department only has 3 ppl (excluding me); my supervisor, ML, and a guy.

ML, as mentioned earlier.. well I think she has smth against me. The guy.. I think he is kind of shy and weird, anyway I have a feeling that he likes to be alone or smth. As for my supervisor.. I think I pissed her off or what.

On the first day she took me to the cafeteria at 11am to pack food but at that time I didn’t bring my wallet so I told her I didn’t want to buy any yet, so she ask me to go back first. It was like her kind gesture was turned down by me, I’m damn stupid.

I ended up having lunch with the weird guy; that was how I got the feeling that he is weird and also likes to be alone. ML was no where to be found in case u were wondering.

On the second day, I took the company transport to work. It was really terrible at first coz I didn’t know what bus it was as all the company buses look the same, and I didn’t know any1. The worst part is not knowing where the exact pick up point was. I spend like 10mins running to and fro from where I think the pick up points might be.

At last I saw a bus with a tiny sign at the side saying “EMET Pioneer” so I just hoped on. Luckily someone on the bus who recognizes me smiled at me and I knew I was on the right bus. Otherwise, I might have gone to the bus uncle to ask if it was going to Exxon, and make myself a laughing stock. Thank Goodness!!

Lunch on that day was kind of sian too. I went to join some of the poly students from another department sharing the same lab as us to get food. I didn’t inform my supervisor or anything, and guess what? I met her at the cafeteria.

It was kind of like I didn’t ask for permission and went off but she did tell me lunch time was anytime. But anyway I felt bad coz I should at least have the courtesy to inform her. I’m so stupid!

When she saw me, she was like “I tot u didn’t want to pack food? Why, had a bad experience yesterday?” Me, being a little deaf ask her what her 2^nd sentence was, 3 freaking times.

The poly students started their attachment way earlier then me, so they already knew each other pretty well. Also, I can tell they were on good terms with the ppl working there, even my supervisor. I felt so lousy. So lousy.

Anyway I didn’t talk to any1 coz have no1 to talk to. They probably think I’m weird, shy and likes to be alone, the same as how I tot of that guy. sobs!

God.. help me..

Let’s see..

A new brain!! Well.. not a total replacement or anything like that (I type as though it can be done), but just maybe.. to become less sotong.

I think I’m pretty famous for that, which is bad. I was at a|x 2 days ago and I bought smth there. When I reached home, I realized that my Samsung card has 10% off. Actually I already knew Samsung has 10% off, and I had the card with me all the time. But~! I just had to forgot all about it when i was paying.

That’s not the end of it. The next day, I saw a newspaper ad that DBS credit card holders have another 10% off. That means I could have saved 20%, Argh! Damn it!!

Ok other than that, I’m satisfied with life. Love my family and frens.. Love the way most things are right now. Life could be better, but I shouldn’t demand for more.

Since it is the festive season, I shall end off with smth jolly, kekeke.

God bless u all..

I just realised that 1 of my thighs are thicker than the other by quite a lot! 1 inch to be precise. Quite a lot rite? I noticed it when I was wearing my new levi’s lady’s style jeans when 1 leg was obviously tighter than the other. After first I tot I bought a bad pair.. then I went to measure myself, and the jeans, and.. I found out!!! Horrible horrible!

Anyway, back to funny stuff.

It’s been sooo long since I took any bus outside NTU, so when I saw the electronic board with the arrival time of buses, I was like ‘wow’! high tech!

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See anything wrong with the pic?

Arrival time for the next 700A is around an hour….. btw there’s no arrival time for 700, just 700A.

When I was on the bus, I saw 2 ppl seated in front of me try to squeeze into a 1 and a half seat’s space à (be warned that it isn’t as obvious in the pic coz I’m seated too close to them to take a better pic)

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It’s 2 seats but I guess they just like it cozy.

I’m soo super stressed with the 7 projects and assignments I have this sem. To add on to this shit, some ppl in my groups (different groups for different project) are damn.. argh I cant find a suitable word for it.

For 1 group, I have a “straight As” student in it. At first I was really glad, coz it means tat he would probably want to put up a good project so it wouldn’t drag his grades down. However, he seems to hack care about our 40% weightage project! What he did for our project lacks substantial, examples and linkage to his part. Even basic things such as definition is not written down. I think he also lost his focus or smth, coz he ended up doing something that overlapped with mine. I wonder how he get his As?! I think I did a much better job.

To make matters worse, I think everyone, except me and another guy actually put in effort to do our parts. The whole project doesn’t flow nicely and the other also didn’t link what they wrote to what they’re suppose to do. For example my part is on IDENTITY, so naturally I will link everything I did to it. But somehow things like that didn’t go “naturally” to the rest.

For another group, I have this loud-mouth fella. Talk talk talk… as if very smart lidat.. please lor, the more one talks, the more flaws that person reveals. In that fella’s case, the more stupidity and irrationality is revealed. But whatever, I’ll keep quiet and let outside ppl teach that fella a lesson during IA or whatever.

Argh… when I do project, I expect people to put in effort, especially if it’s for a core subject. I dun understand why some ppl can be soo irresponsible and shabby in their work. Maybe they wanna graduate without honours or wat, or maybe their grades are too good already, can still afford to get a few lousy grades. Whichever the case, I really dun wanna be dragged down by them!

2 incidents in 2 days, concerning banglahs (I AM NOT RACIST; i’m just using the word "banglah" for better identification).

Day 1:
Caught this banglah standing face to face in front of me, staring right at me. I gave me my nastiest stare back and he gave me a really weak smile in respond. however, the guy never learn his lesson, he still kept staring throughout the whole train ride.

Day 2:
Basically, the pic says it all.

No, he is not dead. but he might have fainted (of hunger.. exhaustion.. many possibilities).

i’m sure he isnt dead as i observed that his chest was kinda moving up and down; indication of breathing. anyway, me being a gd samaritan, tried waking him up. i kicked him gently at his foot but apparently, it was too gentle. he didnt wake up and i end up getting stared by the other by-standers.

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i usually categorise my frens on msn according to schs which i’ve known them thru. after getting to know them better, i feel that i should have sub categories too. 1 of which would be "superficial frens". i havent added in the sub category yet, but i have a pretty gd idea of who to put in =). prob many of my uni frens. ops i mean… fellow uni-mates.

these insincere ppl (dishonourable liers, ppl users etc) make uni life damn sian.